Monday, December 18, 2006

A New Feature. Could possibly become a regular addition to pixnprose.

Tuesday Twosome

(Topic seems appropriate seeing how as we're celebrating Rachel's engagement. )

1. Have you ever said “I Love you” and not meant it? Has someone told you “I Love you” and not meant it?
My "I Love You's" have changed over the years. For the longest time (most of my life) LOVE was reserved for boyfriend/husband. I don't think I said I love you to anyone else for the first 25 years of my life. Then I had kids. Oh my goodness, the love. Totally different than that love for a husband but just as intense. And that was it. The four males I shared my house with got all the verbal (and written) I love yous that I had to give.
Life turned upside down 8 Christmases ago (hmmm, maybe this is why I have such a hard time getting into the spirit of the thing) when he left, but slowly I'm finding that I can receive and express love to other family members and even my girlfriends (in a not-gay way.) I love you is not synonymous with I am committed to being your wife forever and ever til death do us part amen. It just means that I love you. Romance and lifelong commitment have nothing to do with it. Look at this, all this explanation and I STILL HAVEN'T ANSWERED THE FIRST PART OF THE FIRST QUESTION. Bet you're wishing this was one of those one word meme's...
Anyway, have I ever said "I love you" and not meant it?
No. Those words do not roll of my tongue or fingertips easily. I make a conscious decision each time I mention them.
Second part of question: has someone told me they love me and not meant it? Don't think so.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight? Do you believe in karma?
And no.
Thought I'd bless you with a short answer this time...

3. What person do you trust the most? What person do you trust the least?
I trust my mom with all my mixed up, angry, silly, not-figured-out, frustrated thoughts and feelings. I trust her to keep loving me even when I'm not so lovable. And I trust her not to betray me by sharing the secrets I've told her.
The person I trust the least is myself. Try as I might, I can't trust myself to eat healthy proportions, excercise at least once a month, say no to late night random blog surfing, get a decent night's sleep... I can't trust myself to embrace whatever God has in store for me. I can't trust myself to take writing or photography seriously. I can't trust myself ... oh the list is endless.
I just deleted the rest a really really long answer that would bore the scales off a snake. That would bore the tan off of Pamela Anderson. That would bore the needles off a Christmas tree.

4. What type(s) of music do you like? What type(s) of music do you dislike?
I like rock.
With lots of guitar and deep meaningful lyrics sung by a male vocalist with a deep melodic (raspy) voice. You think I'm talking about Rod Stewart, don't you?
I also love worship music. Again with the guitar and male voice and blue jeans and longish hair and friendly smile and the intense emotion of it all.
You think I'm talking about Michael W Smith, don't you?
I like music that touches my soul, causes me to sway, inspires me to praise, moves me to tears, and motivates me to sing along.

I dislike all other types of music.

5. Who is your celebrity crush? Who do you think is your celebrity look-a-like?
My current celebrity crush is Shane West. I was cyber-stalking him last month (again with the I don't trust myself business... I don't trust myself to simply admire a good looking actor. I need to know everything about them, see every picture taken of them, watch every movie they've ever made, read every interview they've ever done. ) (Do I have too much time on my hands or WHAT?) ANYway - my way of combatting inappropriate celebrity crushes is to stand and look at myself nude in the mirror to confirm there is no way I have a hope.... JUST KIDDING. (Shudder. Come on, lets all shudder together...) No really, and this is dumb, but I'm going to trust you with a secret. My way of dealing with celebrity crushes is to pray for them. Not sure if Shane has had as much prayer on his behalf in his entire life as he's had from me this past month. I've added his name to the long list of kids I pray for daily. So if, for instance, last Wednesday he had an indescribable urge to eat healthy foods - DING that's because that's what I was praying about.
Do you think maybe I need psychological help?

Second part of question: Who is my celebrity look alike?
If I was 50 pounds lighter, and cut my hair shorter, had some work done around my eyes, had one of my chins removed and had the scars lazered off my face, I think maybe I would look a little bit like Bonny Hunt.

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