Currently - June

And with that ("that" being three "Currently's" in three months), THIS has now become a regular feature. (This was the May version. And this was April.)

Obsessing over,
Working on,
Thinking about,
Anticipating,
Listening to,
Eating,
Praying for,
Happy about,
Wishing. 

I am obsessing over:

• My lost notebook. My whole life (at least the bits that weren't on my laptop) is in that notebook. And it disappeared sometime last weekend. I have taken apart two homes, two vehicles, and contacted every single business/organization that I visited last Saturday and Sunday TO NO AVAIL. Police report numbers, insurance claim numbers, phone numbers, email addresses, fax numbers for Telus re: getting out of that bloody contract I've been stuck in forever ... I am obsessed. 
• My fight against FEAR. I will not be paralyzed by it. I will not. 

I am working on:

• insurance projects. (Auto, House, Unemployment and Life.) Surprisingly, this has turned into a full time job. So. Many. Forms. (No, seriously. SO MANY FORMS. And they all require that I DO something.) It's like homework. 
• My priorities. I always get mixed up on what's really important.

I am thinking about:

• The Midnight Madness Ikea event tonight and how I'm not going. Because I JUST decluttered. But I really want to. (See what I mean about proiorities?)
• My kids. I'm not living with any of them right now and I feel so disconnected. It POURED today and I thought about Max landscaping in this wet, and Drew at the golf course in this wet. 
• My dad. And the rough day he had. And consequently we all had. 
• Friends who are hurting and struggling right now.
• The drug deal I just saw go down at the gas station at the corner.
• The nap I had this afternoon and how that was probably not a good idea. 

I am anticipating:

• My new laptop to arrive any day now. Fingers crossed it will be Tuesday. 
• Lunch with my Arrow mates next week.
• Reading some of those books I bought last Saturday. (WHERE DID THIS WEEK GO?)
• Moving back to my house full time tomorrow. My God is bigger than my puny fears.
• My first showing (a realtor is bringing her clients through my house) this weekend.  
• Seeing Brave. 
• A few weddings this summer.
• Living with Drew again.
• Menopause.
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I am listening to:

• Downton Abbey from the other room. I introduced it to my mom earlier this week; she's partway through the second season.
• Her clocks chime. This house is full of chiming clocks.
• The automatic icemaker make ice.

I am eating:

• A Caramilk. And I'm washing it down with lots and lots of water.

I am reading:

• online job descriptions
• Insurance claim forms
• One Year Bible
• HA! This is from last month: I am currently working my way through: Inheritance (final book in the Eragon series), Death Comes to Pemberley (by PD James), Cloud Atlas (by David Mitchell), The Me I Want to Be(by John Ortberg) and Let's Pretend that Never Happened (by The Blogess, Jenny Lawson)  I HAVEN'T FINISHED A SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Other than re-reading Outliers for my bookclub meeting on Thursday night, I haven't read anything since I was robbed. People, there are SO many things I long to read. 

I am praying for:

• Jessica's complete healing and full recovery.
• My dad. He's SO agitated; he wants that seatbelt OFF. NOW. Today he was mean and forceful about it. 
• My kids' relationship with/knowledge of/surrender to/ God.
• Engaged/newlywed couples 
• Strength and courage for my mom.
• My unknown future daughter-in-laws and their families.
• My next job situation.
• The guys who broke into my house - that they would encounter the living God and forever be changed. 

I am happy about:

• My new iphone. 
• How nice my house looks these days.
• Living on a hill. There is talk of flooding with all this rain.
• The kindness of strangers.
• Endless opportunities.
• The roll of Sweet Tarts at my side. And how, so far, there have been WAY more blue, pink and orange ones than purple and green.
• Drew graduated!
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I am wishing:

• HA! This is from last month: that God would surprise me in unexpected ways this summer. WHOA - that break -in WAS a surprise. 
• that my life would make a difference.
• that the staff/management issues that are taking place at the Kinsmen Lodge would be sorted out satisfactorily.
• That I would stop biting my nails. 
• That I would ooze gratitude.