Saturday, August 3, 2013

Two Days Late

Last month,(July 2013) things I was:

Obsessing over,
Working on,
Thinking about,
Listening to,
Praying for,
Happy about,

Here goes.

1. Things I am obsessing over... 

Is there anything worse than an obsessive woman? I think not. I have been watching, with mouth agape, the way females of all ages become ridiculous fangirls when they crush on a celebrity. 

As I mentioned earlier this month, the very popular Diana Gabaldon book, Outlander, is going to become a 16 part mini-series on cable TV next Spring. The leading male character, Jamie, the one that all ages of women have been fantasizing about for over twenty years, was cast earlier this month and my twitter feed and timeline have EXPLODED with comments from women who are obsessed. 

No. I mean seriously obsessed. And a little bit quite lewd. And forward. And unbelievably bold about being physically attracted to him. Sam had 160 followers before he was cast. Now he has over 8500 fans fawning. (One woman, older than him by a decade or more, and brand new to twitter - she joined just so she could follow him -  complained that she had tweeted over a hundred messages to him in 24 hours and he hadn't responded and she was crushed. So very hurt. She wanted twitter to die because it was useless. She went on and on about her disappointment. It was nauseating.)

THAT said... I am obsessing (still) about English/Irish and now Scottish accents/shows. (Do I roll them all up and just say I'm crazy about All Things Bri ish?) I'm trying to be age appropriate and dignified in my craziness. At this point, only my housemate knows how far gone I am. But wow. 

I may also be obsessed with twitter, in general. I'm sure it won't last forever. Dinna fash yerself, aye.

2. I am working on ...
  • not much. I'm definitely enjoying this time in my life. Either it's a gift from God after a stupidly stressful season or He's giving me a chance to regroup before another deluge of crap drops on my head. 
  • a new way to receive budget quote requests next July.Do not want to get sideswiped again next summer. I think I've got something figured out. Looking forward to July 2014 so I can see if it works. 
  • getting enthused about cleaning up all the boxes that ended up being dumped in the basement and garage here at my mom's house. Maybe this weekend I'll work on that project. If the sun doesn't shine. All bets are off if we get blue skies.
  • making vacation plans. This has been the longest stretch of time in my life that I have not had a break/gone on a vacation. #firstworldproblems This is also the first time IN MY LIFE that I've worked fulltime through the summer months. Everyday for 8 hours. #listentomewhine

3. I am thinking about:
  • Clint in Africa
  • Max in New West
  • Drew in Langley
  • me in Surrey
  • God in Heaven, Jesus in my heart.
  • How lucky I am. 
  • Friends and the journey that so many are on
  • Aging
  • Where I'll move to
  • And when
  • And why
  • My dad and his increasing difficulties with swallowing
4. I am anticipating - 
  • Creationfest next weekend. I'm just going to attend the last two days. CAN'T HARDLY WAIT. 
  • Free concert series at the PNE at the end of August. Sigh. I just love summer. 
  • Staying in Yaletown for a few days. 
  • More laughter. More tears. 

5. I am listening to ...
  • Amy Grant - How Mercy Looks From Here: 
When you face your greatest fear
Losing all that you hold near
Open up your eyes my dear,
Oh how mercy looks from here.

The call I couldn't take,
Unbearable mistakes
A brilliant mind that fades away
A baby doll beside the grave

I would have given up, drowning in my tears
If it wasn't for your voice all these years

That's when boundless grace appears
Unseen angels hover near
Saints are singing loud and clear
Oh how mercy looks from here.
Oh how mercy looks from here.

This woman speaks for me so often.
In 1998 when both of our marriages were ending her lyrics shared with the world the feelings in my heart during those first confusing sad months. I won't post them here, but follow the links for If These Old Walls Could Speak or If You Have to Go Away

And now? A lifetime later? She's still speaking for me with her songs. Probably not a coincidence. We're both 52. We both had our first children in 1987. And we both had three kids. And we both got divorced the same year. 

And at this stage of her life, she's dealing with her parent's dementia and aging issues, a son who smells like beer and cigarettes, the death of her friends' son, and finding that sweet spot of doing exactly what God created you to do. 

I absolutely LOVED being at her concert earlier this month. There is something so very inspiring about watching someone be the best version of themselves. She's 52, she's made mistakes. She's a mom and a daughter. She loves and grieves and is so very real. She knows that God loves her and has forgiven her. And she is at peace.

So yeah. Tonight? That's what I'm listening to.

6. I am eating nothing. 

7. I am praying for:
  • Friends who have difficult marriages
  • My kids
  • My dad and mom
  • Certain actors, politicians, writers and musicians.
  • Any requests that have been emailed to me
  • My kids' friends
  • The Door and the guys struggling with addiction
  • Clint's team in Africa
  • The guys Drew works with
  • Danica's salon
  • The residents and workers at the Kinsmen Lodge
  • Dad and Mom's friends who visit my dad. (Sad that your visit was so unsettling today, Mr and Mrs G.)
8. I am reading - 
  • Love Does by Bob Goff. You should read it too. So good.  
“I used to be afraid of failing at something that really mattered to me, but now I'm more afraid of succeeding at things that don't matter.” 

“I used to think God wouldn’t talk to me, but now I know I’m just selective with what I choose to hear.”

“...we need to stop plotting the course and instead just land the plane on our plans to make a difference by getting to the "do" part of faith.” 

"If Jesus has taught me anything, it's that sometimes you can really want to know somebody and it takes them forever to want to know you back."

"Maybe we're all a little like human origami and the more creases we have, the better."

"There's nothing wrong with being typical, I guess, but there's nothing fundamentally right about it either. I've never read in Genesis that God created "typical" and called it good."

"God asks, Will you take what you think defines you, leave it behind, and let Me define who you are instead?"

  • And I'm also re-reading the Outlander series. Currently half-way through Dragonfly in Amber. OY, Diana Gabaldon has SUCH an imagination. 
7. I am happy about my lot in life right now. 

8. I am wishing:
  • for a few answered prayers
  • for the sun to shine again after two straight days of rain
  • for world peace, an end to poverty and a flat stomach

And that's it fer now.
G'nite, y'all...

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