Currently. December edition.

Ooops. I totally forgot to do a November edition.
Oh well.

All I remember of that month were the never-ending tears.
So it's just as well I didn't do a Currently back then.

So.
December.
December 24 to be exact:
Christmas Eve.

These are the things I am:

Obsessing over,
Working on,
Thinking about,
Anticipating,
Listening to,
Eating,
Praying for,
Reading,
Happy about,
Wishing.   

1.  I am obsessing over the toilets. And the dust bunnies. I have not cleaned my house thoroughly for at least six weeks. AND IT SHOWS. 

So while the boys are with their dad, I am mad cleaning. I have worked up a sweat. And gathered two huge bags of garbage. And am currently folding my sixth load of laundry. It's 11 pm and the upstairs is finally clean. 

I figure I have another three hours before the kids show up, so I'll work on the kitchen and family room after I take a break to blog and wrap presents. ("Stuff" presents, actually. Everything is getting stuffed into dollar store gift bags this year. No bows. No tissue paper. Not many presents, actually, either. They just wanted cash this year...) 


So this is Christmas ....

(The other thing I am obsessing over is 'getting better' - whatever that means. My doctor noted that while I may be longing to get back to normal - I may have to acknowledge that I might be looking at a new normal.)

2. I am working on learning BASECAMP, the software that FOTF uses to manage projects in the Creative Services Department. Much to my surprise, I AM learning. Yay me. 

I am also working on going to bed before midnight on week nights. So far so good. Now I have to work on actually falling asleep.

Also, I am working on not gaining back the 10 pounds I lost accidently this month.

3. I am thinking about my friends who are grieving this Christmas because someone they loved passed away. I am thinking about the caregivers at Kinsmen who are working over Christmas cheerfully and with special care. And I thinking about my hands. They smell like bleach. 

And I'm thinking about having to go back to work on Thursday and Friday and Monday. SIGH. In the olden days, I would have had this whole week off. I miss ... oh never mind. "New" normal ...

4. I am anticipating a 2:00 am steak BBQ dinner with my boys. And a laid back, stay-in-pajamas-type-of-day tomorrow. And a fabulous turkey dinner with the rest of my family on Boxing Day. 

I am anticipating that my house will be a mess again in about 48 hours. 

5. I am listening to RULES OF ENGAGEMENT on TV, the dishwasher humming, the washing machine rinsing and the DRYER drying. And I'm listening to my inner voice. It's saying nice things.

6. I am eating nothing. I'll wait til the kids get here, then I'll have some BBQ-ed salmon. 

7. I am praying for my house. That God would be in every room this Christmas. That He would protect it, and everyone in it, from any evil plans Satan has. 

I am also praying for the rest of my family, in their houses. For my mom, alone in her house. For my dad, away from us, at the care home. I am praying for my friends... especially those who are hurting. 

And I am thanking God for all He has blessed me with. Oh my goodness, I am spoiled. 

8. I am reading nothing. I have NO BOOKS ON THE GO. I think this is the first time in my life that I haven't been reading something. I just haven't had the desire/energy/time/ability to focus. THIS BETTER CHANGE SOON, because if this is part of my 'new' normal, somebody has some 'splaining to do. I don't want to be a non-reader. Do you hear me universe? 

9. I am happy about my hair. (Three good hair days IN A ROW.) My ability to learn. My recent conversations with each of my kids. My evening with my dad. The tiny white Christmas lights in the family room. I am happy that all the beds have clean sheets on them, and that the toilets are clean. I am happy that I don't have to go to bed before midnight tonight. And I am happy that it's Christmas.

10. I am wishing that God would continue to work in and through me. 

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Three things I'm thankful for:
1. My dad, got himself out of bed and into a chair today. By himself. Because he wanted to. Defying ALL predictions about his future. 

2. Pink roses.

3. Appliances.

Shalom, friends and family.
Christmas blessings to you.