Currently - December Edition

These are the things that I am:

Obsessing over,
Working on,
Thinking about,
Anticipating,
Listening to,
Eating,
Reading,
Happy about,
Remembering,
Wishing.

I. I am obsessing over:

• not getting sick. I definitely do not want to get the flu. I hate throwing up. And I have plans. Do I feel vomitty? Is my stomach queasy? Enough already. This is just a Dec 31 obsession. I have not obsessed about this all month. So it doesn't really qualify.
• Another Dec 31 obsession? THIS news. (It's the story about the 53 year old mom who was savagely beaten to death last night in Surrey.)  I'm a mom. I live in Surrey. I have been known to pick my kids up late at night. OR WALK HILLS at night. Shit. I don't want to be scared. Obviously I have not been obsessed about this all month. Just today.
• Walking every day. OK. I HAVE been doing this for the whole month. Mostly because I love it. (I went tonight, nervous the whole frikken time because of the news story above.) (So it was a quick walk.) (Yes, it's New Year's Eve. Yes, I am a loser.) For your info, I have not lost any weight with all this hill walking. But my calves? Are ROCK HARD. Sexy as hell. Not. 
• My sister's peanut butter balls. I have now eaten them all. Thanks, Jule, for bringing me some extra ones on the 26th. I was a little bit crazed knowing they were in the freezer. 
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2. I am working on:

• making a list of obtainable goals for 2014
• letting go of my British obsession; especially the Northern England thing.
• a budgeting/accounting process for work that works for everyone involved in the process
• giving up my longing to watch Blu Ray DVD's on the TV in the media room.

3. I am thinking about:

• Facebook. And how many negative comments I keep hearing about it in real life. How it promotes depression and feelings of isolation in people. 
• The movie I saw on Christmas with the boys. And a few of the storylines I watched in Season 2 of Call the Midwife. And how screwed up we are as a society. 
• The NA and AA communities around the world. And how thankful I am for them.
• Not getting sick. 

4. I am anticipating:

• That I will probably get the flu.
• I am anticipating a fabulous weekend on the island.
• I am anticipating more days of laughter than days of tears in 2014.
• Good things.

5. I am listening to:

• Texan accents. It's New Year's Eve. I'm single. Everyone I know is married. OF COURSE I'm watching Friday Night Lights with my mom. 
• And in general, this past week, I've been listening to:
• Lumineers (because in the latest issue in the People Mag, there were TOP TEN lists. And I had seen most of the top ten movies. And had read most of the TOP TEN books. BUT I DIDN'T KNOW A SINGLE SONG. So, at Danica's suggestion, I'm starting with The Lumineers. And she's right. I do like 'em.)
• Jason Mraz (I might be a little bit obsessed with his I Won't Give Up on Us song.) 
• Edward Sharp (Specifically Man on Fire.)
• And, random, I know, but I've also been listening to Oasis and The Arctic Monkeys. It's that Northern England thing. I will try to give this up in 2014.
• Music from the first decade of this century. (How does a person refer to the years 2000 - 2010? There's the '90's. The '80's. The 00's?)
• Plus, seeing she's sitting *right over there, I'm listening to my mom chew ice cubes. 

6. I am eating:

• It's New Year's Eve and there are snacks in the house. Like frozen chocolate bars, chips, left over baking, ham, turkey, pickles... and I'm afraid to eat a bite of anything because the other person who lives in this house is recovering from the flu. So. Party on. I'll just sit here and suck my tongue. 

7. I am reading:

• Allegiant. (I've just re-read Divergent and Insurgent, last week.)
• The Fault in Our Stars. (Re-reading this for book club this month.)
• And I should probably read that book I bought for $1.99 on my Kindle. Just a sec, let me turn it on... I'll check. I only have one book on there... Uh. OK. Here we go: Everything is Perfect When You're a Liar. How's that for a winning title?
• and I'm going to read this: John Piper's Top Thirteen Posts of 2013.

8. I am happy about:

• Why is this always the hardest one?
• OK. I am happy about ... 
• All the non-rain days we had in 2013.
• Actually? I'm pretty happy about the way this whole year went. Considering I was crying the blues (literally) a year ago when I was staring down 12 months of working 40 hour weeks with no vacation time - it was alright. And considering that everything I own except my clothes, camera and laptop is boxed up - it's alright. And considering I have no idea what the future is going to look like - it' alright today. 

9. I am remembering:

• Well, of course, I am remembering New Year's Eve's of the past. My favourites were the ones at Harrison Hot Springs as a teenager. I've never really gotten the hang of them since then. 
• And I'm remembering the past. COME ON. It's New Year's Eve. Time to look back. (Tomorrow is New Year's Day - the day to look forward.) If you're not getting kissed tonight, it's a time of reflection. Oh, that reminds me. I have a visual for the word "reflection". Hang on. I'll go find it.  

• Here it is. (That's Teapot Hill reflected in Cultus Lake.) See what I mean? Perfect pic for reflective posts, eh? Know what I love about December? The lake is always glass smooth, and reflective pics always turn out awesome. So awesome that sometimes it makes you dizzy.
• So, I am remembering. And it's all good. 

10. I am wishing:

• that I could enjoy that chocolate bar in the freezer
• that I won't let this week's murder prevent me from enjoying night walks
• that I would be excited about whatever God has in store for me next
• that I would be more encouraging, more prayerful, more disciplined, less fearful. 

And that's it. 

The last CURRENTLY of 2013. 

And WOW - perfect timing - fireworks just went off on the other side of the river. It's like the whole neighbourhood is celebrating that I've finally finished this post. 

Three things I'm thankful for:

1. I'm thankful that I'm related to Clint, Max and Drew.

2. I'm thankful that I am loved.

3. I am thankful that God answers prayer. 

Happy New Year, friends. 

Shalom.

xo