Currently: July 2015

Things I am currently:

Obsessing over,
Working on, 
Thinking about, 
Anticipating, 
Listening to,
Eating,
Praying for,
Reading,

Remembering, Happy about.  

1. I am currently obsessing over:

• Nothing. I have no current obsessions. Just a few favourite daydreams. 

2. I am working on:

• Being more honest in my blog posts regarding obsessions.
• Adding fibre to my daily intake of food.
• Adding even more salads to my life.
• Updating my instagram account more often.
• Checking off items on my list of 101 Things to do in 1,001 Days. (I did 2 more this month... walked across the Port Mann Bridge and danced. Not on the bridge. At a wedding.) (But dancing on the bridge would be fun.
• I am working on my issues. Haha. What issues? I'm working on identifying any I might have.

3. I am thinking about:

• Oil pulling. Is this a thing that people actually do? I CANNOT imagine swishing coconut oil around in my mouth for 20 minutes. GAG. Here is one woman's experience.

• My body. The inside part of it. And how I don't know what attaches to what, or what each piece is responsible for doing. And how I talk it all for granted until something hurts. And how I should grow up already and learn a few things. And maybe take care of all those bits that keep me ticking along.

• My body. The outside part of it. And uh. What it looks like. Naked. Because last Friday night I watched a woman walk around her apartment totally nude. The guy in the apartment did not react. He just kept making supper and cleaning the kitchen while she wandered around brushing her teeth (before dinner? Weird.) They ate on the couch, not touching, him dressed, her naked. She went to do laundry afterwards, he took out the garbage. I should probably mention that she was overweight, dimply, saggy, wide, droopy and wrinkly. Is that why she was being ignored? This might be too revealing about my past life, but if I were to wander around the house naked, that would be a bit of a signal that I was interested in something besides brushing my teeth or watching TV on the couch. Maybe it doesn't mean that in all relationships. And maybe men absolutely need a young, firm, fit body to get inspired/interested/aroused. Mature bodies are ignorable?  I think I would be devastated if I were to surprise my guy by walking into the kitchen with no clothes on and he just kept on making supper. Or maybe he's used to it... maybe she does this regularly - washes all her clothes and has nothing to wear on laundry day? And it's got nothing to do with intimacy or sex or desire. It's just how things are when she's washing her clothes? 

• I am thinking about this article. IT CAN'T BE TRUE. Please let it not be true. 37% of men in Canada are having sex with at least 7 different women a year? WAIT. WHAAAT? That is a 'orrible stat. Stop it. Just stop it. All of you. 

4. I am anticipating:

• The PNE, and attending at least one free evening concert. 
• A birthday celebration or two.
• Doctor and dentist appointments. THIS SO SUCKS. 
• Sunset walks.
• A busy month at work.
• MORE sunshine.
• Weekends at the lake. I hope. 
• That God will direct my paths.
• Walking across another bridge or two.

5. I am listening to: (These are the new-to-me songs I added to my playlist this month.)

(Heard both these bands (Need to Breathe and Drew Holcombe) live in July. And loved these songs in particular.)


Be more heart and less attack:





If God is on my side, who can be against me? 






I am difference maker...






American Beauty. This was his opening song at the concert; it feels like a summer song.
I love his voice.






I like to be with me when I'm with you...






Fire and Dynamite:
(You are a novel in a sea of magazines...)






I. Want. You. To. Live. Forever. (Underneath the sky so blue.)





6. I am eating: (New-to-me foods tried this month...) (I tried these at Gary and Joy's Indian wedding reception on July 25).

• Butter chicken. OH MAN. So good. Yes, first time I've tried it. 
• I'll have to get the name of the cheesy, vegie saucy thing I put over rice. That was delish too. 
• Lookit me being all adventurous with food. Next up? Beets? 

7. I am praying for:

• Friends who have had surgery this month.
• Friends with cancer.
• Friends whose marriages are over.
• Friends who need work.
• People who need Jesus.
• Summer camps. The speakers, counsellors, leaders, campers.
• Newly marrieds.
• Engaged folks.
• My kids.
• My extended family.
• NA/AA communities. Here and in England.
• Churches: Westside, Village, Northview and their leaders
• People who are looking for housing.
• People who write books.
• People who write screenplays.
• People who direct, produce, cast, score and act in productions. 
• Me. I've got a bladder infection now. OF COURSE I DO. So tired of taking antibiotics, though very grateful that they were invented. 

8. I am reading:

I just finished one book this month. The others I am still working through.

I loved this book. And even though Donald's and my journeys look nothing alike, (he battled intimacy issues by serial dating. I am in all ways opposite) there were alot of truths to be contemplated. I would post some of them here, but the book is over there. In my backpack. In the corner. And I am Just That Lazy. 

 

9. I am remembering/happy about:

• I ended June recovering from a teensy surgery beside my tear duct and started July with an acute Diverticulitis attack. Getting old is Such An Adventure.
• Haha. TOO much of this month was spent recovering from first the infection/inflammation, and then recovering from the side effects of the antibiotics. 
• Best summer in the History of the World, and I've been sidelined for half of it. Haha. In July, I sat in the sun a total of 9 hours, spread over 31 days. I am not bitter. 
• But I did fun things too. Wandered around Crescent Beach, False Creek Seawall, Mill Lake, Fort Langley, New West, WALKED ACROSS THE PORT MANN BRIDGE ... Introduced my mom to Olympic Village. (For that matter, I introduced Heather to it as well. It could easily become a happy place for me.)
• Had a meal with each of my boys, separately. Hoping we all can be in the same room for a few hours in mid-August. We haven't been together since June 1. Not that I'm obsessive about keeping track of days or anything.
• And of course, I am remembering that Indian wedding; so unlike anything I'd ever experienced before. 
• And the clothing I borrowed for the event. Felt so loved and cared for.
• And the evening on Heather's Vancouver condo's balcony will likely not fade from my memory anytime soon. 
• I friggen love summer. 

Three things I'm thankful for:

1. Movies. Saw another one last night. It was pretty raunchy and lewd but funny and poignant at the end. Everyone talks about how hilarious it is. I was crying at the end. I suck at laughing. (Movie was Trainwreck.) Also saw Spy with my mom. Melissa McCarthy just might be my favorite actress. So thankful for the entertainment industry. 

2. Married people who love each other well.  

3. Colouring books and felt pens.